Magic mushrooms as an inner game accelerant

September 5, 2012

Robusto and Bhodi recently roped me into an evening on magic mushroom truffles (still legal in the UK). I was hesitant because I hold druggies in contempt. For all the hippy talk about expanding your mind, I don’t take hallucogens for the same reason I’m not into Buddhism and Zen…. it’s all just the oblivion of the opium den. There’s a tension in much of the Eastern-influence philosophy. On one side are tools which help address the imbalances and stresses of modern Western life, in particular ways to achieve mindfulness and live in the Now. I strongly urge men to read Osho and Tolle in order to unburden themselves of needless resistance against immoveable objects. But there’s another side. Tolle lived on a park bench for two years – basically a vagrant – and the hippy Mecca of India is in fact a dirty festering shithole where a billion inbred illiterates live in filth and bathe in a river full of upstream faeces. You need to come out of the Now to get things done.

Living in the Now has its drawbacks

I had an unremarkable trip, sitting in the lounge of Chateau RSG listening to music, chatting, on Facebook. Bhodi locked himself away in his room to “play chess with his Ego” and had an incredible time. He came round to my room the next morning waxing lyrical about all his inner game breakthroughs…. hmmmmmm….. so a week later I try it. Here’s my inner game recipe for mushrooms.

*warning* – if you have no experience of hallucenogens, or even worse you often have bad trips, then don’t do this

  • Take the normal regular dose. There’s precious little advantage from doubling it.
  • You must control your environment to have only the stimuli you want. This means stay in your bedroom, turn the lights off, and have Spotify / a music player open. The music will determine your mood so have a wide selection for different emotions. You will be providing the triggers to access the emotions you want – you will be controlling this trip.
  • Be alone. There should be one non-tripping friend nearby to check in on your occasionally and he should be someone you trust not to fuck with you.
  • Have a notepad or some other means of recording your ideas.

Mushrooms are an inner game accelerant. From discussion with Robusto and Bhodi it seems we all achieved a similar effect. Men have a module in their brains that allows us to interact with the real world and impose our will upon it. It bestows logic, discipline, third-person observing ego upon us. This is what I mean when I say men live in their logical forebrains. Women don’t have it. Mushrooms remove that module. The effect is profound for inner game because suddenly:

  • Empathy shoots right up. I remember listening to some upbeat dance music and really getting into it, feeling it in my bones, letting my whole body absorb itself. Suddenly I realised that this is what women mean when they go to dance clubs to dance all night and lose themselves in the music.
  • Everything is symbolic. You can deeply read life’s lessons from the tiniest of events or triggers. The downside is that your mood is determined and amplified from tiny shifts in the tide and you also lose the ability to critically separate the profound from the ridiculous… just like a woman.
  • The ego dies. You no longer have the little voice trying to repress or fool your core emotions. You can dive right into those emotions and let them loose.
  • Without that Real World Man Module (RWMM), you become shockingly aware of how incompetent and vulnerable you are. I knew when I got hungry that I couldn’t be trusted to cook a tin of beans on the hob without supervision from a non-tripping housemate. I knew I couldn’t win a fight. It’s a strange feeling to be unable to confidently impose yourself onto the real world. Again, this is how women feel all day every day.
  • The RWMM necessarily creates emotional distance because lots of the things we have to do tread on other people’s toes. You can’t fight and kill easily when you are emotionally connected to your enemy. You can’t discipline a wayward child without detachment. This is a feature not a bug and women don’t have it. Women have unfiltered emotion. It’s only when mushrooms remove the RWMM that those structures dissolve and you acheive deep emotional connection.

So the ‘shrooms are giving you a simulation of the emotional impact of thinking / feeling like a woman, an archetype you can refer to when trying to understand their behaviour and needs, while also internally letting you connect to your masculine core without hinderance from your ego and it’s elaborate structures. Imagine if you could learn to turn off the RWMM at will (non-assisted). That’s what it’s like to be a ladies man.

One of the hardest processes in Game is to allow your new target identity to form. Think of your inner game as three concentric circles. On the outside is your Behaviours (stand like this, hold vocal tone like that, approach etc) which are a relatively quick and easy fix. However it’s hard to stay on point because those behaviours are informed by the next inner cricle of Beliefs (what women want, how dating works etc). The Red Pill normally deals with the beliefs and has a positive knock-on effect with the behaviours taking you closer to being a natural. However the beliefs themselves are driven by the deep inner circle of your Identity (who you are, what you want). It’s only when all three are congruent that you can unburden yourself and live the life you really desire. Changing identity is very very difficult. It’s a long hard process with many ego traps on the way.

The traditional method of identity change is to obtain reference experiences (e.g. to change beliefs that young women want to fuck mature men, you have to fuck a few. To change your identity that you are a man who young women want to fuck takes even longer) and then let them perculate, gradually bedding in and taking root until they are part of you.

Inner game, yesterday

Mushrooms accelerate this process of bedding down identity. It’s one thing to intellectually reach a helpful conclusion. It’s another thing, an order of magnitude above, to truly feel that conclusion in your bones.

Bhodi gave me two good metaphors. Imagine your inner game is like lasagne. You have different layers of pasta separating the meat, the top layers representing weakly-held easily-broken beliefs and lower levels being strong core beliefs that can’t be budged. Or imagine a big tall ceiling-less empty room where feathers (representing beliefs) are dropped in from above and gradually fall to make a big soft cushioned floor (your identity). When first dropped there’s always a risk that gusts of wind will blow them out of the room entirely, lost forever, but as they fall further that risk reduces.

Mushrooms make those feathers drop like stones. It’s an accelerant. While on mushrooms a whole flurry of feathers will drop and hopefully when you wake up the next day some of them have stayed there, some of the beliefs sunk to a lower pasta slice.


  1. This was a truly great post. The RWMM you’re referring to is related in some sense to the same gradient of psychological removal or distance that intensifies to an extreme expression in Asperger’s.

    What remains is for you to determine the optimal spacing for shroom trips. 1 year? 6 months? Or does it depend on the pace of lived life, aka reference experience? What about conceptual evolution – does that also count towards the meter, or should another drug be used to consolidate the intellect, e.g. LSD?

  2. I think that everybody should try sex on mushrooms with a woman one likes. Indescribable.

  3. [it’s the fact they are truffles, not the mushrooms themselves, which is the difference. K.]

  4. Have you ever tried Salvia? THAT is some crazy shit. Cajun nearly destroyed my kitchen on that shit.

  5. This is a great post. Very interesting read.

    I’ve done many drugs, and had many psychedelic experiences.

    From a young age. They definitely are “inner game” magic, but with the light comes the dark as well.

    I can see how many people (or have seen many a person) who should not and simply can not take hallucinogens. It shatters far too much of their ability to exist, in that, it’s simply perceptively become altered, so reality has bent, and nothing is real anymore.

    I think mushrooms, specifically azurescens, are the most interesting of hallucinogens. LSD is a drug that I think causes great shifts in ones psyche as well, however is less predictable than the psilocybes.

    One thing that I never understood was people that took these drugs recreationally in a way that mimicked drinking; i.e., taking shrooms to “trip balls” and go to a party – always sounding like terrifying and awful experiences, and always appearing to be not entirely OK with what vulnerability they had forced upon themselves.

    My first to my last experience with psychedelics has been alone, and that will never change. It’s a highly personal event that should not be taken lightly, because doing so completely destroys the effect it should have. Or, usually results in nothing but negative experiences.

    Salvia Divinorum is a very potent substance.

    People use it like sugar. I know I did. It was/is legal. At one point, my friend and I were smoking it on a daily basis at 17 (I haven’t smoked it for years, but the last time I did it was easily comparable in potency of experience to when I took around 18 hits of some very pure LSD – the second of two times I’ve used LSD – of course, the LSD lasted far longer, but the experience was equally as powerful during what 15 minutes I traversed some other plane of perception, like being a molecule in an Alex Grey painting, or being the sinewy electricity of god). It was easier to get than weed, at the time, for us; however unusual that is, considering where I live.

    I don’t even like smoking weed very much, however do see that it would probably be a better substance to use than those which I’ve physically been programmed to prefer.

    But, to Salvia: it can give you absolutely the most profound experiences ever [period] or it can leave you unsettled by the weirdness of where You go or it will be one hilarious journey into what you’d presume is madness as experienced by how you’d be were you…mad.

    One thing that people who use Salvia need to realize, or be aware of, is that, unlike shrooms or LSD, Salvia can and likely will make you “black out” in a way similar to alcohol for some period of time.

    Salvia needs to be explored much more, but as far as my experience goes, it is the only hallucinogen (popularly used) that I’d say you absolutely need someone to be there for your safety. It’s highly unpredictable. And it’s very quick, despite how long it may feel for a brief infinity.

    Salvia is where people should begin when exploring their Western Mind. And where many people should end before devolving into the Eastern arena which illusively can become a ridiculous obsession for drug-users, as sort of mentioned in this post.

    I have yet to try Ayahuasca, and am somewhat weary about doing so, lest under the proper shamanic provision.

    Unfortunately, I’ve had far too much experience with drugs. I would not recommend any man, woman, or child use them unless necessary or for short periods of time (however that’s obvious, and also ridiculously naive to say, as it takes a rare breed of human to not indulge in what feels good). Though, if people do decide to use drugs like I have, I’d say the only thing one need do, is never do the same drug or any drug for that matter, within 24 hours of having done said drug. Prevent dependence, harm reduction strategies, etc…

    Drugs can be beneficial; addiction isn’t.

  6. Krauser I’ve tried my share of drugs but never tripped because I’m slightly worried it will fundamentally change my perspective on life and comprimise my last 10 years of hard work. I’m a banker-type and a large part of my ego (unfortunately) has been tied up in my job, salary, etc because it consumes all my time. After some hard work I am comfortable and confident with myself, but I’m basically afraid I will develop the opinion that what I do is meaningless and lose my drive to put in the long hours. If you had done this experiment at perhaps age 22-28, do you think you would have taken a drastically different path? I don’t know much about you, but am assuming you made enough in your 20’s to enjoy the travel and quality of life you do now. Thanks for your insight.

  7. Interesting, I’m going to try them sometime..

  8. i should sleep. the internet is addicting. very telling. agree with bbird.

  9. Anyone know where to buy truffles in London? Or any websites to buy online?

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  12. Be careful with shrooms (and all psychedelics). You definitely need to be in the right state of mind, like Krausers first points allude to. If youre feeling a bit down, the go for a trip, you could end up crying yourself to sleep. I’m not trying to scare you, only warn you. The dark side of your emotions can show up and freak you out. Use with caution.

  13. Could you be kind enough to point me in the right direction of a seller ?

  14. How much did you take (in grams)? [No idea. Not alot. K.]

  15. Similar trip with BHANG.
    Had a similar trip with bhang, the first time I took it in a heavy dose. Mind slowed down, Thoughts felt deeper but actually they were simply slower , as a child thinks, before the thought has been repeated a million times and becomes automatic.
    I figured my mom and my girl were fighting for my love. Which was something I would never have figured sober.
    I saw the two sides of everything, which is again how women think. (Is the horse a poor beggar for having only grass to eat, or is the grass poorer still)
    I did feel strong emotions ebbing and flowing.

    Now I want to say that I HATE potheads and drug addicts (yes everyone who does is one) in general.
    But I hate potheads the most.

    My surmise is that MArijuana is estrogenic, and increases estrogen receptors or whatever, in order to transition your brain temporarily to the female state. (bhang is eaten and also contains opium)

    Again it was good, but on the two or three occassions Ive tried after, it was absolutely not worth it. I now feel that even with a small amount of drinking, the next day is destroyed.

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