You all know my shtick: Euro-jaunt season begins in late-March and runs to early-November. Then there’s an off-season hibernation in which I recuperate and catch up on my projects. It was different this time around because in summer I quit daygame. That revulsion period lasted awfully long, the longest and deepest I’ve ever experienced.
I’m done being a notch-hunting player, but not done with girls. Hence, at some point, I’d need to get back in the saddle and make a go of it. Wanting to at least leave the option of daygame open, should my revulsion lift, spending my winter in Newcastle was ruled out.
Well, the third world is fucking disgusting. I’ve already tried Mexico, Brazil, and Thailand. Shit-holes. Never again. The Balkans and Russian Federation are too damn cold. I settled on Prague. If nothing else, it’s a lively and beautiful city. I flew out on the 4th January and returned to the UK not quite two months later. I set myself some goals, in descending order of importance:
- Gym and Diet
Now the two-month period is up, I’ll tally my score against objectives. Not really sure why anyone would care, but this blog is about my life’s path, so suck it up.
Gym and Diet
I’d become a right fat bastard. Since first moving to Japan in 2000 I’d been fairly fit and trim, right up until 2014. My mental self-image was as a fit, healthy young man. By 2015 the reality was starting to slip further away from it. The fattest I ever got was 86kg and a 36 inch waist in January 2017. I lost a bit that year but remained chubby. In the summer of 2018 I weighed 83kg and dared not measure my waist – probably 35 inches.
Still, when I looked at myself in the mirror I didn’t seem fat – not to my naked eye. Especially when I sucked my belly in. My self-delusion was broken in June 2018 in Warsaw. My Ukrainian regular came around for sex and she’s quite happy to have me record her on camera. So, I videoed my fucking her. When I watched back the tape, I was horrified. I looked fucking disgusting naked. Bitch tits, distended stomach, puff face, thick smooth thighs. I felt sorry for the poor girl. Love is blind.
My next stop was Belgrade where, as luck would have it, I was sharing an apartment with Jimmy for a week. He’d just begun an extreme calorie restriction diet. I joined him. We spent all week eating barely 1000 calories a day, competing to see who was hungriest. It was awful, but the weight dropped off. I continued the starvation diet until the end of August, when a bodybuilder friend explained I need to do it smarter. I agreed – I’d weakened by immune system so much I was bedridden with ‘flu three times in two months.
Still, better than being fat.
I’ve been training hard and watching my diet ever since. My highest priority in Prague was to maintain this discipline. It was a success. I didn’t miss a single gym session, nor miss a single day’s diet target. 100% success on my top priority – easy really, it’s all within my control. I ended my weight cut in early February at 71kg with a 29 inch waist, 39 inch chest. Since then I’m targeting lean gains and a daily +300 calorie surplus. I’ve only gained 0.5kg so far as the glycogen, water, and food weight stablise.
The big goal was to write another memoir, finishing the first draft before leaving Prague. Initially I expected to do a single volume to cover 2015 and 2016. That soon became impractical, as I’d need to rush too many stories and leave too much out. So, I split the period to give each year its own volume. My Prague goal was to finish volume 5, for 2015.
I’ve done that. It’s a 40 chapter, 155k word draft now. I’m happy with it. It can now be added to the queue of memoir volumes to be edited. It feels like a weight off my shoulders, not just because writing a big book in two months is quite a task. It also puts me 6/7ths towards completing my memoir project. Additionally, I was concerned I might not remember enough details to tell the stories well. I needn’t have feared. Additionally, my Instagram account and Airbnb booking history helped me get the timeline exactly right, with all the stories in order.
This was a high priority last year and writing a review after each book was rather demanding. I relieved myself of that for 2019. There were no targets for reading, just a general sense that I want to maintain my reading momentum. I’ve come to very much enjoy it, so much so that my Netflix and video game time has shrunk to almost nothing.
I read 35 books in two months. Many were normal novels, but there were also three massive Alexandre Dumas epics, and a massive Great American Novel. I can also tick off ‘reading’ as a success.
And here we get to the goal that was least important and also least within my control. My intent remained low, but I was pleased to find on some days I was enjoying it again. The extended break had rekindled some of my interest. I did very few solo sets but had a regular wing from England, and also Roy Walker was over for a weekend when I gave it a good effort.
Overall, I did around 60 sets. Maybe a bit more, I wasn’t logging them. I got an SDL with a hot Russian tourist I met in Palladium. She made it rather easy for me, and my game felt out of practice so I was lucky that it didn’t matter. I dated a few more girls of the type I really like, including a very memorable Kazahk village girl. Ultimately, only the Russian panned out.
About 3/4 of the time, my game felt way off the peak. For the 1/4 it went well, it was almost like the good old days. Those latter sets were great fun and I remembered why I like daygame. Overall, I’ll say this was a qualified success. The worst of the revulsion is over, I still appear to have some of the old magic left, and I can only see myself getting better as the weather improves and I shake off more of the cobwebs.
February 28, 2019 at 1:05 pm
Good lad Nick, don’t give up your an inspiration 👍
February 28, 2019 at 3:20 pm
About Your Gym and Weight Goals
Have you thought about using a Keto diet? You’ll find that you can keep a stable weight with minimal effort year round. It is strict, but you’ll get such great results that you won’t even care.
February 28, 2019 at 3:50 pm
Good on you, Nick. Thank you for your honesty, self-awareness and drive over the years.
February 28, 2019 at 5:36 pm
I can verify that Nick was a boring git and stuck to his diet and gym every day, even when I was there for the weekend and tried to drag him to the pub every night.
February 28, 2019 at 7:17 pm
Incredible results. Most people over 40 nowadays are like big blobs of fat. No serious intention of getting better.
Hope you aren’t growing into a big old grandpa anytime soon. And that the player’s fire is still somewhere there burning at full blast.
February 28, 2019 at 8:47 pm
Well at least you found your future wife in Belgrade.
March 3, 2019 at 3:21 pm
February 28, 2019 at 11:38 pm
I love the Krauser’s Quest VI logo. Maybe you should rename yourself Reddragon? 😀
March 1, 2019 at 12:05 am
When most guys say they are done being a player they mean they’ve gotten a girlfriend or wife.
Is the current goal of your daygame and dating to eventually get into a long term relationship or are you content with have a regular fuck buddy or two.
March 1, 2019 at 12:58 am
Have you tried paleo?
Also I loved your book reviews. Can you compile a top 10? It’s very difficult to go back and at a glance know your opinion on how highly you rate the books.
March 1, 2019 at 8:45 am
What diet and exercise regimen did you follow? Are there any online resources you can direct us to?
(Looking forward to meeting you tomorrow.)
March 2, 2019 at 1:51 am
Scrolling through some old posts and see it is now :
6 years and counting waiting for your Deep Conversion
You originally said here :https://www.google.com/amp/s/krauserpua.com/2012/09/12/deep-conversion/amp/
“Certainly it will never be released”
I’m assuming this was because there are things you feel you cannot be publicly associated with saying.
However this is * exactly * why I urge you to publish it… the taboo factor alone will create a buzz in the sphere that will lead to some good $$$ for you
Remember Machiavelli said all kinds of evil things but was able to write in a way where he “got his point across” in a savvy way, obliquely, through metaphor, etc etc without bluntly saying things that would get him in trouble publicly
I also urge you to consider charging…
$200.00 minimum , position as the 1 top tier product in your line..
March 2, 2019 at 10:10 am
Do you think that Nick is some sort of Caleb Jones?
March 2, 2019 at 9:14 pm
Skeletor isn’t a God, and he isn’t 100% right about everything.
One of the things is keeping the Deep Conversion a secret. Bad men will figure it out, good guys stay blind, and their relationships suck. And nobody benefits.
March 5, 2019 at 12:28 am
Agreed. There is no such thing as “secret information” or “hidden knowledge” in the age of the internet.
If the PUA community figured out all the details of Pickup and Seduction theory and publicized it for the world to read then we can be sure that enough men will figure out deep conversion that at least one of them ends up publishing a detailed how to manual on it.
March 3, 2019 at 7:18 am
Ever considered doing a spiritual goal?
You could set up a goal to do eg 30 mins of mindfulness meditation every day (a surprisingly hard and rewarding activity to do if you’re a heavy thinker).
You could follow the prescription in Culadasa’s “Mind illuminated”, a tome I’m sure you’ll find worthy as it provides a highly structured INTJish Buddhist system (none of that New Age bullshit) with eg 8 jhana level to attain and such AND the guy grounds the whole lot in modern neuroscience.
Check it out, I’m sure you’ll find it interesting.
If you want more theory you can check out your fellow PUA right-wing Brit Illuminatus over at his site Personal Power Meditation: http://personalpowermeditation.com/
March 4, 2019 at 8:12 pm
That website is literally the worst design and layout I’ve seen in years. Epic fail. (I’m doing him a favour in mentioning this)
March 5, 2019 at 7:54 pm
Slightly off topic but I’m thinking of a sabbatical/euro-jaunt for the first time. Considering Prague, Budapest, Warsaw. Can anyone advise on the best approach to short term accommodation in or around these cities? As a naive foreigner I imagine this is a fraught process where you’re likely to end up getting ripped off.
March 5, 2019 at 8:50 pm
If you are staying longer, you can message the host on AirBnB and negotiate a discount. I get around 25%-30% discounts for 2 months+ stays in Europe. Please you are completely protected by AirBnB.
March 6, 2019 at 11:47 am
Interesting thanks. Tried airbnb for short stays before but found price was no better than booking.com and quality often a lot worse.
March 7, 2019 at 2:57 am
Are you Aussie booking from Oz?
March 5, 2019 at 9:44 pm
I’m curious as to why you hated Brazil and Thailand so much. I’m a reader from Brazil that has been to Thailand and Mexico (as well as much of Europe and the US), and I very much enjoyed my stay in Southeast Asia
March 8, 2019 at 11:16 pm
Nick, what would be the name of the next book, the level above Infinite that you may write? [FBI/Ninja level. K.]
Daygame Beyond? Daygame UberMensch? Daygame Ultimate?
And what color would it have, since Infinite already has the Platinum color? A diamond pattern?
March 11, 2019 at 3:07 pm
I’d love to ser a picture of you at 71kg (I assume you’re about 5’10) [You really should’ve added “no homo” to this remark. K.]. Great achievement at your age.
I am also an aspiring writer. I read 35 novels last year. 35 in 2 months, and around 100 last year is remarkable.
March 12, 2019 at 10:38 am
If you were to make getting your physique to the same level as your game your goal or at least packing on as much lean muscle as possible within a year or so and it’s effect on your life that would hell of an interesting to read about. I hear up to 40 pounds of lean mass can be added to your natural frame without drugs. And when you reach your 40s who gives a fuck about being natural it’s all downhill from there, a little experimentation could be a blast if your not an idiot about it.