January 2019 Memoir Update

January 20, 2019
krauserpua

I’m more of a writer than a daygamer now. That’s somewhat obvious to those of you masochists who still read my blog in the vain hope I’ll start posting interesting stuff again [1]. This blog began way back in 2009 with the explicit goal of logging my Player’s Journey from stumbling amateur to (hopefully) mPUA.

Am I now an mPUA? I’d like to think so, if such a creature exists.

Now that 2019 rolls around my goal hasn’t really changed. I still want to log my Player’s Journey. Only now I’m looking back on it and I’m really into writing books. So, I’m all about the memoir. Of all my projects, it’s the memoir that is dearest to my heart. It’s the culmination of the whole blog project [2]. It’s only fair I give y’all an update on how that’s going. Take a deep breath, it’s complicated.

My rewrite of volume one (Balls Deep) is done. It’s currently 210k words, massively expanded from the original 130k, and completely rewritten. It might as well be a completely new book. It’s currently “in editing” but that’s held up because my preferred editor is way behind schedule. It was promised before Christmas but all kinds of calamity has occurred [3].

Volumes two, three, and four are all published in nice colour editions on Ingram and available on Amazon and Aero (for US customers only) – and of course here. Those are final versions and will not be rewritten or updated. They are all significantly improved from the B/W versions still on Lulu.

Now is where it gets interesting.

The full Nick Krauser [4] memoir will be SEVEN volumes. Yes, seven. I only decided for sure today. What’s all that about then? Let me explain.

Originally I was happy to close out the memoir with Adventure Sex, ending my story at December 2014. However, I continued to daygame right up until spring of 2018. That’s when I finally decided my Player’s Journey was over. I’m not done with women by any means, but the Euro-Jaunting notch-hunting technique-refining lifestyle I’d followed for many years was over. Knowing there was an end point to the story and I’d already reached it meant something important to me regarding the memoir – I had an end-point to which I could write and it was possible to tell my whole player story.

That got me motivated again. So, I decided to write two further volumes. One to cover 2015/16 (volume 5) and one to cover the rest (2017/18 – volume 6). The latter events being fresher in my mind, I took advantage of that improved recall for detail and wrote Little Brown Sex Machines. I have the completed draft sitting on my hard drive. Roy Walker has already test read it [5]

So, do I finalise Balls Deep Second Edition or Little Brown Sex Machines first?

Neither, sir. Neither!

I decided to write volume five. Just get all the drafts done and edit at my leisure. I began writing ten days ago and just half an hour ago I reached a key milestone: 50k words. One third of the projected total book size. That means volume five is no longer a coulda-shoulda-woulda nebulous concept. It’s a very real book and 1/3 of it is already done.

However, it’s now clear that it’ll take all 150k words to cover the many stories and shenanigans of 2015 alone. It’ll take another 150k for the outstanding 2016 period. So now volume five is split into two, making seven in total.

Bored yet?

Allow me to summarise all this nonsense for the few of you still reading:

#1 Balls Deep – second edition draft is completed
#2 A Deplorable Cad – published
#3 Younger Hotter Tighter – published
#4 Adventure Sex – published
#5 Untitled – first draft 1/3 written *current project*
#6 Untitled – nothing. Pie in the sky fantasy as yet
#7 Little Brown Sex Machines – first draft is completed

There will be no volume 8 because I’ve not done anything worth writing about since the period covered by LBSM ends. I intend to keep racing through #5 for the next month or so and – ambitious though the schedule is – to finish the first draft by the end of February. I will then turn my attention to preparing all three books for publication.

Only then will I begin the last leg of this project – volume 6. That’s the plan, anyway. It may all change fast. Writing is a precarious activity.

[1] Mind you, I got an SDL with a hot Russian tourist on my third approach of 2019. So, I’m not quite ready for the knacker’s yard.
[2] Well, that and getting paid.
[3] The draft is safe. It’s his edit work that he contrived to delete somehow. Added to technical and other issues, the whole thing is problematic.
[4] TM
[5] Eventually

37 Comments

  1. Haha. Considering i have been bugging you lately about it and its reviews, update sounds rather hopeful. Summer might be fruitful indeed.

    3rd approach? Damn, is that what MPUA really feels like? 😎

    Telling the story is one thing Nick, but the introspections and monologues on the various subjects scattered within the books are the real gold. [Thanks. I try to make each volume feel different to the others, but I’ve been keeping these elements in too. K.]

  2. I was planning on buying the Balls Deep pdf but I guess I’ll just wait and buy the 2nd edition.

    Speaking of writing do you forsee yourself writing a guide to long term relationships a few years down the line after you’ve finished writing all that you can about pickup/dating ?

  3. Your memoirs are my favorite autobiographies, so knowing there will be 7 of them just gets me excited.

    Btw, since you’re focusing on this project, could you please sometime upload some of the missing parts of Daygame Outlaw and the Daygame Infinite presentation? It’s sad to have that great content kept hidden and out of use for active daygamers, and it will help promote your products while you’re working on the memoirs. [I intend to tie up all loose ends but memoirs by far the highest priority. K.]

    • In the end, he is probably gonna have a compilation of volumes equal in words to the manuscript of Casanova’s memoirs, lol [It’s not a coincidence. K.]

      • Very right, lol

        Didn’t he call this Adventure Sex: The Modern Casanova Memoir ? So it might be the whole series is the Casanova of this Millennium!

  4. I’m confused. Isn’t “getting a SDL with a Russian tourist” harming society? You are corrupting the innocence of girl whose ethnicity is not your own. She is now damaged goods for the patriotic men in her home country who could have started a family with her. To really have a final chapter to your ‘Player’s Journey’ you’d have to denounce such corruption and start a family. The CS Lewis post was promising but now I’m not sure… [Don’t moralise me on my blog. K.]

    • Good point but Nick isn’t advocating for any kind of return to arranged marriage ethno-patriarchy. In fact he says in his book that’s the economic equivalent of socialism.

      I think like most things in life there’s a sweet spot from which the pendulum has swung way away. There’s no way having 80% of women targeting 20% of men can be long term sustainable with any general quality of life.

      This trajectory will end in some kind of giant techno-favela-shithole where most men are drugged and neutered worker drones and every woman has five kids by different apex men.

  5. “I continued to daygame right up until spring of 2018. That’s when I finally decided my Player’s Journey was over”

    Lol, was our time in Belgrade really that bad? 😉 [Only while you were there. K.]

  6. What months/years are covered by the Little Brown Sex Machines memoir ?

  7. Nick you’re a great writer and every red pill man I know has learned at least a little bit more because of it. Look forward to the next volumes

  8. What about the infield product about dating to illustrate the book “Daygame Infinite” like you did with Daygame overkill for the book “Daygame Mastery”? Is it “Stealth Comfort” which is coming soon? [That was a joke on Stealth Seduction being a blatant copy of Richard’s Stealth Attraction branding. K.]

    Anyway “Daygame Infinite” and “Daygame Mastery” are the best books on daygame that I’ve read. I need to read them again.

    I bought volume 3 and 4 of your memoirs but I haven’t started them yet.

    • [Anyway “Daygame Infinite” and “Daygame Mastery” are the best books on daygame that I’ve read. I need to read them again.]

      I agree, when K said these books will help you improve your game for years to come, and should be read at least 3 times, he wasn’t kidding.

      The memoirs are great ways to learn and see into K’s psyche as he was evolving. That’s the best part. Also, his evolving calibration and his decision making had invaluable lessons in the memoirs.

    • [What about the infield product about dating to illustrate the book “Daygame Infinite” like you did with Daygame overkill for the book “Daygame Mastery”?]

      I hope this will include a POV walk in the streets, with Krauser commenting on various girls, and why he thinks they may be a high probability target or not, what about them makes his spider sense tingle or not. A kind of infield of target selection and calibration to which girls walking alone are high probability and which are low probability based on his gut feel and objective reasons. This matches Infinite’s teaching and is very very valuable to have an infield of Krauser speaking to us with the camera on his chest, so we see what he is seeing and follow his decision making about choosing sets in real time.

  9. So…what’s for the end game? We don’t get a volume 8 about what’s life after millions of cold approaches? [It’s boring. K.]

    • So that’s the death of the Dramatis Personae 😦

      I can imagine Nick K (the memoir main character) retired in the woods with a shb11 like Wolverine but with more pc gaming and less wood cutting.

      Good luck with everything, your posts kickstarted me in giving game a second chance at age 33

  10. Good news.Just finished A Deplorable Cad. A very entertaining read, well done.

  11. I’m a huge fan of the mansion, as found in your books and Bodi’s as well. Would consider buying a booklet just on that. [Try hassling Jimmy to finish his memoir. K.]

  12. Finished recently Deplorable cad, the review can be found here:
    https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/2628262443

    My other reviews:

    Younger Hotter Tighter
    https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/2628248961

    Adventure Sex
    https://www.goodreads.com/review/show/2628268981

    I also urge any of your readers who have read your stuff to make proper public reviews on either Amazon, Lulu or Goodreads. Being it a single sentence or a paragraph doesn’t really matter. Feedback is always crucial for a writer in becoming better.

    Overall, the best volume both aesthetically and in content is definitely Younger Hotter Tighter. Deplorable Cad had the most interesting content and personal insights. Although i felt inclined to like “Adventure Sex” more, due to it projecting a more mature self of the author, i didn’t like at all the difference in writing direction. It also felt somewhat dryer visually, so it could really use publishing that second edition in your personal library. Felt like something didn’t really click that well. Pretty close to that feeling you have when you sense something is missing. Like something just doesn’t “click” right. [I very much appreciate you taking the time to review the books and it’s helpful. Funnily enough, I wrote the volumes in the order of 4, 2, 3 so what you describe is my gradual improvement as a writer. K.]

    I have yet to read Ball’s Deeps, but gonna have to wait for that second edition. I am somewhat inclined to believe it will be the most intense of them all 🤠.

    Verdict: Reading these books definitely keeps you entertained throughout weeks since they are massive and much enjoyable at the same time. Its a lot better than any “Netflix and Chilling” at a lazy night, regardless if you are into Game or not.
    Wisdom compressed.
    It can also be said they are somewhat complementary to Nick’s Daygame textbooks. Some really cool takeaways out of situations that can happen to anyone being on his Player’s Journey. Daygame doesn’t only entail routines and Game, but it also follows with any implications that come with that. Both psychologically and physically.

    I am determined to start sometime soon with Casanova’s memoir, the original French edition, so i will eventually be able to make a comparison between the 2 mPUAS in the distant future.

    P.S. 1 In an effort to delve more into the “mythology” Krauser has built around his life and his adventures, have even picked up John Bodi’s 2 books. From a preliminary read, not on parallel to Krauser’s stuff by far, but very enjoyable to say the least. If you can work ofc with the author’s serious personal issues and death spiral.

    P.S. 2 As illustrated in vol 2, you kicking that hot girl in the arse at the bar made my day. DAMN. [I just had a drink with her earlier this month. We are still friends. K.]

    • It will always intrigue me how you manage to lure back into your life lots of these girls, like a huge invisible magnet. Even in the span of years to come. Regardless if it’s for sex or companionship.

      I also have to confess that i would prefer it if the next volumes had the same structure as volume 3. If these books where your children, YHT would definitely be the more charming and charismatic of them all.
      Yet again, i am curious to find any new directions your writing has taken.

      As far as your textbooks are concerned, reviewing them would feel like sacrilege. These are close to classics. Meaning you just read them, decide what you can better apply to your Game and and follow as illustrated on paper. Its like trying to rate a classic book written thousands of years ago. Beyond rating due to its evident value.

  13. I’m half tempted to get the revised Balls Deep (I bought the PDF some time ago). It was really what ‘The Game’ should’ve been, although the brutally raw approach of Balls Deep probably wouldn’t have inspired so many PUAs I guess.

    One thing that was mentioned briefly in Balls Deep was the idea of ‘value tapping’. If I recall correctly, this was something to do with the more extroverted Jimmy taking over sets in a nightgame context by leveraging off less extroverted wings. I would be very keen to know how Nick deals with this now – it’s something I’ve struggled with if I go to bars with wings who take over sets just by bringing in a ‘high energy’ approach.

    Also Nick, obviously the modern western world does everything possible to discourage healthy family formation, but do you ever entertain the idea of settling down with one woman and bringing a few little Krauserlings into the world? [I will get married as soon as I find the right girl. I’m looking. K.]

    • @Bastiat That’s all well and good until her hypergamy sets in and something bigger and better comes along as it no doubt always does for high value women. These hoes ain’t loyal. You might as well bleed yourself dry.

      • “That’s all well and good until her hypergamy sets in and something bigger and better comes along as it no doubt always does for high value women. These hoes ain’t loyal. You might as well bleed yourself dry.”

        You’re correct. However, I myself don’t feel comfortable ‘going my own way’, even living in a country with a 1/3 divorce rate. I’d rather run the risk of bleeding myself dry and have a few descendants, than to die with my wealth intact but with no genetic legacy.

      • I’m not disagreeing with you and everything you have stated is honorable and rings true. However, I can count with both hands how many friends who are weekend fathers that I know personally who gave their all but it never seemed to be enough.

    • Bodi also talks about value tapping in that context. Looking back after many years I now think that if you really are a hardcore introvert with the average 9-5 lifestyle it’s simply not worth bothering with night game. Delusional game zealots will decry this as weak excuse making to be sure. But if you simply hate the environment and the typical demographic, find yourself steamrolled by extroverts and the whole experience is draining and exhausting, then you’re playing the wrong game for you and wasting your limited time and energy.

      • “Looking back after many years I now think that if you really are a hardcore introvert with the average 9-5 lifestyle it’s simply not worth bothering with night game.” The same could be said for Daygame tbf. Majority are a bore to listen to but will get the occasional Yes girl so thinks he’s good.

      • “The same could be said for Daygame tbf.” I disagree. Don’t get me wrong dg is extremely difficult but it is actually feasible for introverts in a way that frat boy night game simply is not. To use a bad analogy it’s like a guy with a weightlifter physique dabbling with track and field, it’s just a dumb way to spend time and energy unless you actually enjoy it in itself.

      • You missed my point. In Daygame you need to amplify attraction. This is what makes Daygame insanely difficult. You need to get her attracted enough to jump your bones in the bedroom. Y-H-T of course. Most men can’t do it. Doubly when your introverted. I just can’t see an introverted guy get Y-H-T without some form of charisma. I liken Daygamers to Male Pornstars as I always wonder if they actually enjoy the sex as it’s so difficult to pull off.

      • Interesting I actually thought you were a daygamer but it sounds like you find it distasteful. I’d argue the reverse about attraction. I think you need a shitload more attraction to succeed with night game where there’s constant sensual assault and distractions with which you’re competing. Whereas LDM variants only suggest an initial short attraction phase up to the hook point after which you can basically be real but in a masculine leadership role, which most introverts are capable of given practice. That’s not to say it’s easy of course. I think most of the the battle for introverts is with their own self esteem, given the typical social/sexual deficit.

      • @Lightning Jack:

        “But if you simply hate the environment and the typical demographic, find yourself steamrolled by extroverts and the whole experience is draining and exhausting, then you’re playing the wrong game for you and wasting your limited time and energy.”

        This really describes my experience, which is why I’ve found persevering to be a bit pointless. I was just wondering if there’s that ‘one weird trick’ which can make the experience tolerable. I’ve always preferred daygame and found it easier to make an impression on the girl, although the big problem with my location (Melbourne, Australia) is that the CBD has pretty much been taken over by the Chinese. If you’re not into Asians then it’s virtually impossible to accumulate a decent number of approaches. Whites have retreated to the suburbs, so it’s really hard to find a place with decent traffic, which isn’t such a problem with nightgame. For a guy that can’t play social circle game, nightgame is basically all that’s left.

        I’ve gotten quite a lot of number closes out of nightgame, but unsurprisingly they’ve all been flakey apart from a couple (literally).

        “I think you need a shitload more attraction to succeed with night game where there’s constant sensual assault and distractions with which you’re competing.”

        This is true but I would say more specifically that doing well at nightgame requires you to be more attractive in a ‘shallower’ sense, i.e. physically attractive, extroverted and high energy. These things help with daygame of course, but a man who doesn’t have these qualities to such an extent can benefit from leveraging off a certain gravitas or mystique. Which is why a lot of us are here I suppose.

        “I think most of the the battle for introverts is with their own self esteem, given the typical social/sexual deficit.”

        From skimming across a lot of the self-help literature on this topic, this seems to be common for introverts in general – feeling lost in a society which tends to value extroversion. Interestingly, I’ve been reading Matthew Pollard’s book on introversion and sales, “The Introvert’s Edge: How the Quiet and Shy Can Outsell Anyone”. The upshot is that introverts actually end up being the most successful salespeople provided they have a system or process in place, since they can’t rely on their personality. I’m sure there’s a game parallel in there…

      • They’re both distasteful for separate reasons.

      • “They’re both distasteful for separate reasons.”

        lol I agree entirely. But it’s a question of how much you want the outcome, and realising there’s no other way to it.

        “This really describes my experience, which is why I’ve found persevering to be a bit pointless. I was just wondering if there’s that ‘one weird trick’ which can make the experience tolerable. I’ve always preferred daygame and found it easier to make an impression on the girl, although the big problem with my location (Melbourne, Australia) is that the CBD has pretty much been taken over by the Chinese.”

        No there is never ‘one weird trick’ that is pure scammy click bait shit.

        Interesting observation on demographics, I’ve been out of Oz for nearly 10 years but everyone knew back then the demographic trajectory. It could be a lot worse. At least the Chinese are high IQ and seem to have a soft spot for western culture.

  14. Nick, what’s your thoughts on the link between daygame and ptsd? I’ve had my brother tell me I’m always on edge (hyperarousal) [Dunno. K.]

  15. PUA’s (decent ones) have a good chance of making marriage work imo. Far better than the average man.

    • Interesting thing about divorce rates which is usually overlooked is that it covers all marriages, not just first marriages. An R-select ho just can’t resist a good dicking, so many first time divorcees get remarried and re-divorced, increasing the total divorce rate. Less than 1 in 3 first time marriages actually result in divorce, despite the 42% total divorce rate stat. Think guys worry too much about divorce rape. If a guy knows he loses the frame with girls a lot then it’s probably a bad idea to get married. Otherwise he probably doesn’t have much to worry about. 70% of first time marriages never divorce per current UK stats. [The biggest two points, I think, are (i) those stats include people with multiple divorces, therefore it’s not 50% of people get divorced rather it’s 50% of marriages end in divorce. (ii) some demographics or types of marriage are more risky than others, so a man can try to avoid that. All considered, for a smart man with options the real risk is way lower than 50%. K.]

  16. Hey Nick,

    I recall you mentioning there were three men in addition to Thomas Crown who took up your memoir challenge.

    How has the editing work on those been comig along ? [Funny you should mention that…. news coming very soon. K.]

  17. Hi Nick. Any news about all this? I’m eager to part with my money.

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