Balls Deep: Introduction

February 16, 2015
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Ever since I was little I dreamed of becoming a professional seducer....

Ever since I was little I dreamed of becoming a professional seducer….

Chronological Note

Half of the book’s chapters focus upon one particular girl per chapter, telling her story in full. These are organised according to the order in which I first had sex with them, regardless of when we first met. The additional non-sex chapters are slotted in approximate chronological order between those. However, every story overlaps and covers time periods of varying length. For example I met and laid Rakiya within two days over the New Year ringing in 2010 (and never saw her again) whereas the Dovile story covers two years from meeting in September 2010, to sex in January 2011 (determining her chapter’s placement), to finally ending the dating in mid-2013. That’s the best way I could impose a narrative structure upon a fundamentally messy reality. This volume begins in January 2009 and effectively ends in March 2011 when I finally laid Zaria, with some girl’s stories continuing on longer where necessary to close the loop.

Introduction

It’s difficult to write a memoir about fucking a lot of women without coming across as an insufferable show-off. By definition, I’m a man who succeeded and chances are you’re holding this book because you want to know how I did it. Yes, in four years I had sex with one hundred new women. Most of them were hot and their average age was early twenties (I was thirty-four when I first got laid on this journey).

What I achieved was rare, but not special.

Each and every man carries within his DNA the burden of responsibility to pass it on to the next generation. Every single one of us is the current version of a DNA code honed through a million years evolution to be a winner.

Yes, that’s right. Every single man reading this book is the latest in a long line of winners.

Of course, so are each of the other 2.99 billion men on the planet, so let’s not think of ourselves as special snowflakes just yet! At each generation we are embroiled in a Darwinist fight for survival and replication and… it’s a dirty low-down fight. While Disney tries its best to put a clean romantic gloss onto the fight, the reality is often squalid, dishonest, and shocking. Just pick up a women’s gossip magazine and read the relationship pages.

Like most men, I preferred to believe the Disney version. While I was no hopeless romantic I truly believed in the white-picket-fence respectability of the suburban family. It’s how I grew up—my parents still married as I write these words, an older brother, a steady job. It was what was expected of me, and I was happy to fulfil the role. So I worked hard at school, even harder at work, and by age thirty-one I was happily married to a sweet Japanese girl one year younger than me.

That was how I planned to acquit myself of my DNA’s burden of responsibility. And then things went wrong. The marriage turned sour, my wife left me, and I lost all interest in my job. It was a bad time. Not just the shock and heartbreak but also the shame of it—I was the only person in the history of my family to have gotten divorced. It stung.

For three months I moped around. I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat, and had no joy for life. At work I was like an imposter in my own body. Approaching my thirty-fourth birthday I was single and—worse yet— completely lost. I had no idea how to find a new girlfriend. The rest of my life stretched out ahead of me like a sexually-barren landscape.

On my birthday I decided to treat myself and fucked an escort. She was twenty-four years old, from Hungary, and pretty damn hot. I calculated how many times a month I could afford the £150 in-call cost of an escort and checked the websites to see if they were hot enough for me. I seriously budgeted it. It was the only way I knew to get sex with women I found sexually attractive.

Ugh! I shiver at the thought now.

It was at this low ebb that I heard about the Seduction Community, a world-wide group of men (connected through Internet forums) who claimed to have learned the secret code to picking up women and having sex with them. I believed their bullshit and gave it a go. Incredibly, it worked. Most men fail, but I actually succeeded.

I’d found a new path. By the end of it I’d learned far more about women and about myself than I ever dreamed possible. All of my preconceptions would be smashed and my entire world-view rebuilt from the ground up. As you sit reading these words it probably sounds far-fetched, so let me ease you into the journey. Right now almost everything you think you know is wrong. One reason I wrote this book is to show, through examples, how I stumbled upon my version of the truth.

This book is mostly about the women in my life. I find writing it that way takes the edge off my narcissism. As the story progresses you’ll see me develop from a sexless hopeless fool who couldn’t even get a kiss for six months into a man who was having sex with nineteen-yearold students in pub restrooms in the middle of the day an hour after meeting them. As I sit writing this introduction, just two hours ago, I “notched” (had sex for the first time with) a nineteen-year-old fashion model from Serbia on our second date.

And it was fucking awesome.

So, inevitably I’ll come across as an insufferable braggart. I apologise for that. There’s no other way to write about fucking a hundred hot young women. But I’ve also tried to share the darker sides of the story. This journey has been an emotional rollercoaster where I was probably unhappy far more than I was happy. I’ll relate to you the anxiety, selfdoubt, and sense of isolation I felt for months on end as I knuckled down and tried to get good at seducing women. I’ll write about my failures—there were a lot of them.

This is the first volume. It tells approximately twenty-five percent of my story. I’ll share my experience of beginning the most difficult journey of my life and by the end of this volume reaching a stage that most men have long since given up on. Many of my readers will be dipping their toes in these waters for the first time, wondering if they too could become a professional seducer. I’ll do my best to guide them through those tough early stages where most of the feedback is failure and the path is littered with landmines and wild goose chases.

And if people enjoy reading it I’ll write the next twenty-five percent. So I hope you enjoy reading my story. I certainly enjoyed living it.

Nick Krauser Belgrade, June 2014

Next installment (Chapter One part one) in three days

Balls Deep full book available in PDF here for £10 and paperback here for £20

The first Rock Solid Game holiday, to Malaga in November 2009. That’s me almost walking into the lampost

The first Rock Solid Game holiday, to Malaga in November 2009. That’s me almost walking into the lampost

10 Comments

  1. Secret to this, is not trying to hide anything. I don’t take you as a man who tries to cover his failures. There is a sentence in your text that sums it up. “I was probabbly unhappy far more than I was happy”. So, honesty in broad dayligth…People will love it. People just love the Path to Inmortality. The 12 labours of Hercules. The Anabasis. The “I was nothing and look at me now”

    Wating to see more…

  2. Nick, thanks for writing this. I’m looking forward to the rest of the series.
    I stumbled upon your blog early 2011, after googling what a rationalization hamster was. At that time my marriage had crumbled and I found myself single again in my early 30s. Your site was the wake up call I needed. My success with women improved greatly, following an upward curve of younger, hotter, tighter. It was always inspirational to see you trailblazing that curve ahead of me, and I am glad that ever more men find their way here, hopefully with similar results.

  3. Quick question Nick, Just noticed you have Balls deep available for PDF. Any chance you will release Mastery for PDF. I never bought mastery yet because I live location independent and travel quite a bit so it would be hard to carry it everywhere. I bought OVERKILL and the increase in my results have been insane, I was thinking about writing up a testimonial for it. [No plans for Mastery PDF yet. I’m glad you liked Overkill – would like to see a testimonial if you can write one! K.]

    • Sure I”l write one up, Is there a specific place you want me to send my testimonial [Thanks. There’s a Nick Krauser Reviews thread on RVF which would suit. It’s in Knowledge Arts Letters section. Or any PUA forum would be good. Let me know where it goes. K.]

  4. You sneaky bastard, read this and within 2 minutes thought fuck it, I’ll buy it. Now im thinking its about time i bought overkill as well. I’ve been had haha!

    Quality material.

  5. Just bought Balls Deep. It delivers hehe

  6. Nice intro. Looking forward to reading the rest.

  7. Mate, you’ve been extremely generous with your advice and by offering these structures with the proper context. Two things to share that I believe you imparted to me through your work: 1) Don’t apologize. I don’t think you’re bragging at all. The problem is that when you achieve that level of success–personal or professional—there are always fuckwits who are out to try to bring you down. Where did I read that success is the trigger of envy… Secondly, I think it takes guts to put your own story out there for people to read. The Red Pill, Game and sharing successes and learnings often leads to defensiveness and resentment on the part of the listener. I’ve stopped telling guys I know about my situations because they lead to a misunderstanding—either envy or patronizing. Daygame Mastery changed my life both for its structures but also for the chapters and passages on Inner Game. Looking forward to the serialization.

  8. Very nicely written. Knowing that the big names in pick-up went through similar low points to the rest of us is what gives me the self-belief to know that success is possible for me too.

    I’m currently at about 1 new girl/month, in the 6-7 range, 25-35yo. Pretty good considering I started from nothing last year after coming out of a long relationship, but still a long way to go. It will be interesting to read how your learning curve compares to mine.

    Somebody (think it may well have been walawala above) recommended Daygame Mastery very highly to me once, I plan to get to it eventually. I have a big backlog of pick-up material to get through at the moment.

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